its been a while since i last written a journal entry. mostly because i wanted my 'new years resolutions' journal to stay on my page for the rest of the year so i could have a reminder of my goals in my face every time i check my number of pageviews. but now i've decided that...well, life goes on and if i dont fulfill my goals now i could always make more later. i'm me and i'm ok with my imperfections. one of which is being unable to keep my resolutions

i am currently procrastinating on 5 different things:
1. college apps + researching colleges
2. stats homework
3. english homework
4. human physiology homework
5. going out to buy things for the fundraiser for my school newspaper

so yes. as usual my first goal for the year has been blasted into smitherines

i'm thinking of creating a blog now. just to write random things that i think of or that i like or that i just want to put out to the public. sometimes i hate seeing journal entries in my messages thing so i'd rather not do daily journal entries here hahaha. i do like expressing myself in writing but i dont mind not having an audience so yeah

I LOVE HETALIA <3 just had to put that out. man i love hetalia its genius. totally my favorite manga/anime right now

also put together a project - organized an artbook consisting of a compliation of works of artists. its called MUGENO and its a nonprofit artbook and they're promoting the promotion of it so here i am. promoting it. lol. no seriously its looks pretty cool. the cover is here --> [link] as well as other information such as the artists whose works are featured in it and how to order it if you want it so please check it out. it could be a great prize for the contest you're holding or a nice birthday present for your artistic friend in need of inspiration

for some reason i'm only motivated by contests to draw. i'm not sure why. i think it has something to do with my having to challenge myself to the theme or having to control myself enough to draw someone else's characters and their details. but as you have probably seen most of my new deviations have been for contests. they're not very good. but i'm glad to try something new and i think contests tell me where i am in comparison to other artists. plus i get to see other people's creativity and i feel included in it :3

i dont like school :C at all. i thought i'd like physiology and i thought stats would be totally chill but...bleh. i'm not used to the type of class in my human phys class. especially since its a science class. after suffering ap bio and ap chem with the kids of higher intellect...human phys as a kinda different 'science' class doesnt suit me well